Day 4 began much like the others, only we looped back to resourcing. We talked through my resources again and decided to add a new one, specifically to help carry me or walk with me through the car crash that I'm so terrified to process. I chose Thor as my resource for his strength, nobility and worthiness.
We strengthened all my resources together as a sort of "power team" and set off for the day. There were a few instances where I thought for sure my brain was going to take me to the car crash, but instead it moved inside my body to feel different body sensations. There is a great book that explains that and a workbook that goes along with it. I highly recommend them!
We processed through a good bunch of memories today and even though we were prepared, we didn't need Thor. The plan is to attack the car crash tomorrow. This is my mantra to get me through tonight:
I'm not sure what all I plan to do tonight but I plan to be gentle. In the meantime, here is a video that explains more about the EMDR processing process. Just figured I'd share in case you wanted to watch a demonstration of what it looks like. We're using the hand buzzies as it's way less exhausting than the other methods for extended periods of use. Until tomorrow!
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