It's been a year since I wrote my first post. I am relieved to look back at the post and see how far I have come. I'm healing. I still hate being alone. I still hate that I have to do this alone. But, I can say those things without the bitterness that I hear in my previous post. I was blessed this year with a wonderful friend who took time out of his busy family life to give my girls back-to-school blessings. He took time to remember that I don't have anyone to give those. He took time to ask the girls what they were concerned with and what types of blessings they might want from Heavenly Father. So much is still the same as last year, but so much has changed as well. Thankfully, it stings just a little bit less this year.
Today started with a little more dread because I knew we would be tackling the car crash today. I really struggled today, as one might imagine I might. We spent most of the day just trying to desensitize me from the numbness I've built up over the past 4.5 years and allow me to feel feelings related to this again. I feel like we were lightly successful. I'm trying to be kind to myself. One of the cool things was that I imagined reaching out to a friend and then after a round checked my phone and found a text from them checking in at about the same time I'd imagined reaching out to them for help. <3 I came back to my room and collapsed for a nap and I'm waiting for dinner to be delivered. I might do laundry tonight, but I might wait until tomorrow. Oooohhhhh, such big things happening here. Haha! I've decided that it's important for me to share several articles from the crash as well as for me to review them again, so if you decide to look at them - here t...
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