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You have made me realize that hope does exist. You have made me feel again. Just the glimmer of future has appeared. I realize that it might not be with you, but I am certainly open and excited that it might include you. I have been given the gift of feeling joy. I truly look forward to the chance for companionship. For someone to care for me. To want to spend time with me. To want to see the world with me and explore new things. To help me learn that I can enjoy still being alive. To continue to encourage hope. To help me dream. To help me live. And love.
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